SUPER VULNERABLE POST!!!!
So, I joined the ACAC in Short Pump. For those of you who don’t know me well…it’s a big deal! I hate working out with a passion. Honestly, it’s one of my biggest insecurities. Since college I have gained weight (like most people!). I have this insecurity that people are looking at me while I work out and judging me for who knows what. You may be rolling your eyes at me but it’s a fear for a lot of people who struggle going to the gym. I not only deal with this at the gym but in any type of group situation. As I have gotten older I have noticed this anxiety that has developed and I have talked myself out of a lot of things that could have proven to be really fun…just because I didn’t want to judged if something went wrong. I am facing this fear. It may not happen overnight but it’s time that it comes to an end. So here is what my first week at the gym looked like!
“Day 1 at the gym before work….success! Let’s see if I can make it to 3pm without consuming an entire gallon of coffee.”
I had planned to take the cycle express class but guess what guys….the gym can be intimidating and I am the first person to admit this insecurity about myself. I have been struggling with having my own private moments lately and along with living healthier, that’s why I am going to the gym. So I shoved those earbuds in and ran (very slowly, I may add) 3 miles while watching House. It was a good first day. I am going to try to be brave and head to Yoga tomorrow morning. I get nervous about this stuff and people laugh because it surprises them about me. I am not very good at trying new things and striving to leave my comfort zone and that is something I am trying to overcome.
What do you guys think? Should I go to Yoga?
“Day 2 at the gym before work…I had zombie like tendencies dragging myself out of my warm bed. Late for my class so I couldn’t go but watching what not to wear while running/walking…mostly walking was fun. Moral of the story. Don’t stay up late if you want to be a functional human being.”
Needless to say, Day 2 was rough. I learned very quickly that if I am not going to be able to pry myself out of bed in the wee hours of the morning, that I will just go during lunch or dinner.
“Day 3 at the gym…this time after work because I fell asleep last night at 8pm and woke up at 11:45 bright eyed and bushy tailed. Couldn’t fall asleep until 2am so when it came time to wake up at 5:30, it wasn’t happening. Still made it though! I may be hurting in the morning.”
I actually didn’t mind working out in the evenings. It was a little rough on me because I was exhausted from work but it was really easy to zone out and get on the machines.
“Day 4 at the gym…today I went during lunch and I have to admit I am not a fan. I just felt SO rushed to get my workout done and then shower off. I am going to give it another try tomorrow because I found out that my sweet friend Erin goes too and we have a workout date “
So lunch was just okay. I feel like if I miss a workout this is an okay time to make it up. I usually try to work an hour but with lunch I can only squeeze in a 25-30 minute workout.
“Day 5 at the gym…it’s so much better with friends. Sorry if I was wheezing while trying to talk to you Erin Ehrlich-Beard. Apparently I can’t do two things at once very well.”
So much better with friends. Erin is one of a few friends that I actually feel comfortable working out around. It was really nice to just have someone there to talk to! Will totally commit to a workout if a friend is involved.
“Day 6 at the gym…early mornings. GRR!! My legs hurt…. but so far I like this working out thing. I think I’ll keep going.”
I am back to my morning sessions. One reason I like mornings is because I have enough time to get ready in the morning. It’s like my personal time and I don’t have to talk to anyone. ACAC has a killer women’s room. The showers are like top notch hotel showers and then getting ready is just SO easy. My legs hurt today. I am not going to lie.
It’s been a full week since I have joined ACAC and I have gotten in 6 workouts. It has honestly been really fun. I was afraid, I am not going to lie but I have learned so much from this week.
- Enough with excuses. I really can do it, even if it’s a low intensity workout.
- Stop wondering what others are thinking! They are probably thinking the same thing as you and wondering if YOU are looking at them
- One of my friends messaged me that I was starting to inspire her to go back to the gym and I had a revelation. We are all in similar positions and even if you are getting tired of reading my repetitive statuses about my gym experience, someone may need that push! I know I did.
I’ll let you know how week 2 goes!